Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Cheered up.

I have been working for a company (who will remain name-less) for about 6 months now, and my Boss has been the biggest witch in the entire world. I swear she is the child of Satan himself.

I dont have a car of my own, heck I dont even have a drivers license. So when she leaft for the mainland with Bryson and I in charge I didnt realize that we'd have to be picking up dry ice from Air Gas in Kalihi... 40 pounds.. on the bus. First of all I gotta catch a bus 3 hours before I even start from Waipahu to China Town. So Id have to get off in between  in Kalihi and then carry the 40 pounds of dry ice on the bus ans then walk 4 blocks with it to the shoppe on Smith Street. Apprently she thought this was reasonable. She needs to get some nuts in her head checked.

Anyways, today she just had to push me off the deep end so I decided to give up my keys and never show my face there ever again. I dont want nothing to do with this lady anymore or anything to do with her company. This month of December has been nothing but let downs, Im broke, I have no job, family problems (my biological mother when crazy), christmas and to top it all off i gained 10 pounds.. So this month just was not in my favor.

Amy Katsumoto ( my godmother) took me to her line dancing class that she does ever week. Honestly I always thought it was gonna be a whole bunch of sticks in the mud, well come to find out they are actually the most awesomest group of people on Oahu! athey were so sweet! Found out Im horrible at Line Dancing... ( thats another story)

After the line dancing we all went to a Chinese Restaraunt called "Maile" in Mililani. I had the Sum Sing which had Char Siu, Roast Chicken and Roast duck on Rice. I Love Roast duck, I eat it at ever Chinese Restaraunt. After we went shopping at Ross's and Amy treated me. Shes so awesome!

Turned in 3 applications today. My 2015 I hope consists of better luck, a new job, more friends, weight loss, better singing abilities, and more oppurtunities. I need to stop rushing to do things without thinking. I no longer going to do anything that does not benifit me.

Thanks Team Torao for always listening to my bantering always. Love you always.


Sunday, December 21, 2014

Agartha - I may believe this.

Good evening Team Torao,

  Well I find that when I'm up late at night (right now it's 1:20am) my mind starts to wonder all over the place. So much that sometimes I find my mind roaming around the hallows of earth in Agartha.
Yeah it sounds strange but I don't know, just the idea of earth being hallow and super natural beings residing inside just fascinates me.

"Alexandre Saint-Yves d'Alveydre published the first "reliable" account of Agartha in Europe.[4] According to him, the secret world of "Agartha" and all of its wisdom and wealth... Saint-Yves gives a lively description of "Agartha" in this book as if it were a place which really exists, situated in the Himalayas in Tibet. Saint-Yves' version of the history of "Agartha" is based upon "revealed" information, meaning received by Saint-Yves himself through "attunement."
The explorer Ferdynand Ossendowski wrote a book in 1922 titled Beasts, Men and Gods. In the book, Ossendowski tells of a story which was imparted to him concerning a subterranean kingdom which exists inside the earth. This kingdom was known to the Buddhists as Agharti.[5]  
       - Wikipedia

  You know all of those stories you hear as a child or growing up like BigFoot, Fairies, Forest Imps, etc. When I was growing up my grandmother would tell me that they lived under the earth; that is why we cannot find them when looking, they need to find us.

     I know there is no actual locations of entrances to Agartha but I would love to stumble upon one and fall into a different world. I would love to be a part of a humanity. I have lost faith in this humanity we currently live in with; violence, hate, sadness, pain and anger. It would be nice to find peace in a sub-world where everything would be peaceful and the people there would be advanced and not need elementary things like politics, religion, greed, hate, or misery to get by. Everyone would know how to live in harmony.

   I hope that day comes, the day I find Agartha. If I ever find a sub-world where everyone is peaceful and reasonable I will take the ones that love me and never come back to this world ever again. Some days I just wanna run away from it all. One day I will run away and no one will ever find me. To Agartha.



Toki ga Tomattara ~Turn Back Time~ Translations

Toki ga Tomattara (IF TIME STOPPED)
by Hikariyama Torao (Tevita L. Apina Jr)

Living by yourself is lonely
Out the window is dark.
The city lights are flickering
On my cheek a tear falls.

If we could go back to that day..
I would never let you go.
Sadly you aren't coming back.

Please Stop Time.
I want to fix this one more time.
If there really is a god,
please listen to this wish.

Like a dying flower falling apart
my heart fell in love.
At a defeated heart I ripped up our picture.
This isn't your fault.

On that day you walked out that door.
You just disappeared without saying "Good Bye"
Sadly You are never coming back.

Please Stop Time.
I want to fix this one more time.
If there really is a god,
please listen to this wish.

This heart only lives for you.
I wrote this song for you..

Please Stop Time.
I want to fix this one more time.
If there really is a god,
please listen to this wish.


Saturday, December 20, 2014

Toki ga Tomattara ~Turn Back Time~ Lyrics

Toki ga Tomattara ~Turn Back Time~
Music by Hikariyama Torao       Lyrics by Hikariyama Torao
Japanese Management by Kyoko Sano (Mele Music Records)
Musical Arrangement by Craig Shimizu (Shimizu Voice)

Hitori Gurashi wa Totemo Samishii
Mado no Mukou wa Kurai
Tokai no Akari Chira Chira Yureru
Hoho ni Namida ga Ochiru

Ano hi ni Futari Modore tara
Watashi wa Anata wo kitto Hanasanai
Mou Modorenai Kanashii

Toki wo Tomette Kudasai
Mou Ichido Yari naoshitai
Kamisama Hontou ni Iru no Nara
Kono negai wo kiite kudasai

Hana ga Yukkuri Karete Yuku youni
Kokoro mo Koi ni Ochita
Chigireta Shashin Kokoro mo Yabureta
Anata no Sei Janai

Ano hi Anata wa Doa wo dette itta
"Sayonara" mo Iwazu anata wa kieta
Mou modoranai Kanashii

Toki wo Tomette Kudasai
Mou Ichido Yari naoshitai
Kamisama Hontou ni Iru no Nara
Kono negai wo kiite kudasai

Kono Kokoro wa Anata no Tame ni Ikite
Kono Uta wa Anata no Tame...

Toki wo Tomette Kudasai
Mou Ichido Yari naoshitai
Kamisama Hontou ni Iru no Nara
Kono negai wo kiite kudasai

時が止まったら~TURN BACK TIME~ 歌詞

作曲・光山虎夫 作詞・光山虎夫

ひとり暮らしは とても寂しい
都会の灯り チラチラ揺れる

あの日にふたり 戻れたら
私はあなたを きっと離さない
もう 戻れない 哀しい

神様 本当にいるのなら

花がゆっくり 枯れて行くように
心も 恋に落ちた
ちぎれた写真 心も敗れた

あの日あなたは ドアを出っていった
「さよなら」も言わず あなたは消えた
もう 戻らない 哀しい

神様 本当にいるのなら

この心は あなたのために生きて
この歌は あなたのため。。。

神様 本当にいるのなら

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

When you walk Alone.

Today after work I walked around downtown Honolulu for abou an hour and for the first time I ate at a restaraunt by myself.

When you walk alone, you find a sort of mind set a lot different than if you were to go with friends.

Its quite libarating when you ask you things outloud at restaraunts, when you run for bus looking crazy and not caring what others think, or even taking pictures of buildings without feeling judged by everyone around.

You find some people are super nice, you hear workers talking bad about customers, people who are super polite, and people who are the most rude and bitter people. Then you realize there are times when we ourselves become those people sometimes.
There are times when we hold doors open for people, there are also times when we gossip, we are very polite creatures, and there are times when we are the ugliest. In the end we find we are all Human.

Life goes on, and Im starting to understand that little bit more and more everyday.
When you walk alone you find peace.

Monday, November 24, 2014